26/3/2006(sundae)
hii...
thanx 4 all of ur concern...
i m feeling better....
i miss old school times so much...
haix...
time never turn back 4 changes u want to make...
so...(like i have say b4)let bygones be bygones....
so i will look ahead...
but...
i still wish we could begin tis year again....
begin without feeling sad...
being with me remember wat would happen ahead...
n prevernt it...
from happening itself...n reapeating itself again...
to not have those sad memorys...u dun ever wan it to happen...
how i wish...
but it is still the same...
i cant change it...
n i wonder are fairytales somehow true???
can we b in fariytales....
everyting impossible always happen in fairytales....
so i had to wish again...
i try different ways of wishing...
like wishing on a falling star...(but it is rare)
so i wish when TV shows have shooting star...
which is somehow ridiculous...
so i wish when ever my birthday is...
which everyone will get a chance to do every year...
but it is a lie...u are cheating urself....
i have been doing tis since i born...
it has been 13 years...
every year different but somehow some of it is the same....
but it still didnt come true...
not even once...
so i try another type...
write on a piece of paper n put it at the last page of ur dairy...
it works....
in my dreams...
i dream of it...
serveral nights....
the same dreams...
so at least it works...somehow...
i try another one...prey....
i go to temples...
my grandma brought us there b4...
it was a long time ago...
real long...
last time i go is like....5...i cant remember....(=
the last thing tt would help to everyone...hope...
everyone hope...
hope 4 all kinds of things...
like new handphone or an ipod...
so i think hope is the best....
but it didnt work AT ALL...
haix....
but there is always HOPE(like everyone say)if u prey or wish...
haix...so i did it no matter if it is real or if i really believe in it...
good luck folks...
hope ur hopes,dreams,wishes and preyers come true..
BEST WISHES...