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27/4/06(thrusdae)
hii...sorri 4 not blogging lately...lazy...n sick... not serious.... at least still can sing...lalala~ quite dull lately......... got LOTS of homework... n cannot understand wat teacher is teaching..... haix....life 4 me is SOSOSO difficult tis year..... mayb is part of growing up.... haix....of couse is NO... growing up has nothing to do with fate/destiny... it is a process... haix....mayb tis is part of the PROCESS that i need to go through.... talk about hard luck.....n hard life....but is temporary... wonder how to stop coughing...hate it...cant REALLY sing properly... although IS can sing la....arhhhhhhhhhh... todae is a bad day... wonder how m i goin to face school 2mr....??? arh....own ppl money.....but i promise i will return monday...swear.... cant own anymore... it is like a lousy day... although i believe in seeing a rainbow is good luck for the day.... y is it always like tt....but at least has a tiny bit good... feel like screaming but cant.... feel like drowning myself but cant.... feel like having sth washed against me /knocked against me but cant... feel like stop the world 4 a moment to really get all the thing that happen so quickly into my mind but cant... feel like turning time back but cant.... feel like poison myself....so i would die n 4get wat happen through my life but cant... feel like doin sth impossible but cant.... feel like doin a lot of things...but no time... arhz.... feel that watever i wish 4 will come true... feel....feel....y not think.... stupid me...stupid... y...Y i feel that my mind is sleeping while myself is awake....active... YYYYYYYYY...tell me... stress...mayb...too much worries...mayb... mayb... is not an answer....i wan an answer....help me... or i will break down soon...collapse...n paralysed.... n y muz i spend SO much money juz bcoz i feel like it n not think abt it.... abt wat happen if i spend too much... y muz i keep askin my mum to change my phone....y... again feel....i dun wan too much power on FEEL ....i wan to THINK... but God give me so much feel to think.... sth amiss i can feel... i can realli do so if u believe... u may thing tt it is weird n disgusting... but it is all true... can u believe that ur dreams will come true after A year or A FEW months or even days??? i can....true... so i so pray tt some of the dreams may not come true bcoz it is bad dreams.... real bad.... i can think but not tt much... i can think but once i give wat i think.. ppl seem not to understand AT ALL... y...those realli understand me will noe... but i stil cant find anyone hu will spare their time to find out wat i mayb feelin or thinking....no... not even my family... they keep saein u understand someone inner not outter(chinese) but they dun understand me at all onli c the cover always... arhz.....can someone plz nderstand me...so tt watever isae u will listen understand n give the right opinion... i doesnt wan to sae anything else... juz telling u all that i m not wat i look outside...solid....or never will cry... but plz....think...dun b like me feel... n is realli correct sth... stop here...doesnt wan to sae anymore ar...haix... bye....good evening to all of u....5.50p.m 20/4/2006(thrusday)
hii...didnt post lately coz VERY busy with the public performane...but it is over liao... have lots of worrys in my mind...dunno how to explain... veri fan... wish to know how to solve it... there is the thing abt the *girl...n the *boy.... in my class....the *girl seem to like the *boy.... but i dunno anything... is my friends observe one.. n they dun like her... with REASONS.... erm...bcoz... she is erm..bad???? she kind of use A title to cover all her misdeeds.. she never thought that if she write tt person name...too many times... that person may have a record....i think so from all ppl... nearly..=) n she act..she should like b angry rite..but she is like laugh with us when sth is funny n wrong at the same time... she should not laugh lor...coz she is doin sth wrong also... that is like...cant explain... those kind of thing u will feel... is like ''euk''~ it is like act bad...fierce...haix...onli when *boy sae she will also sae.. haix...2mr still got running...... juz feel...somehow the world turn against me... haix...everything i do is not tt smooth... haix...sian... end here... haixhaixhaixhaixhaixhaix... 7/04/2006(friday)
a promise a promise...i sae i give a quite web-ups.. i swear that i will b early from now on... dun do last minutes work... n got lots of choir pratices... ya i thin 2mr then i post... veri tired... go sleep... i surely can remember wat happened tis few days... n 2mr have more things to write coz still got choir... siansiansian... n my blog temporary dun have songs... coz i m finding a new one.. NIGHTY NIGHTS... 5/4/06(wednesday)
skip blogging 4 a few days....real busy lor... suddenly the hw grown.... tired...n stress out... how body bad...ache... i somehow grown nearer to one of my frens but somehow apart from others... still feel weird though.... but i am fine... i have so havey loads... atually nth much to sae... the same thing... dun realli feel like saein wat happen tis few days... i think friday i will give a quick wrap up on wat happen this week... coz 2mr got practice again... n muz sell the tickets lor....or buy ourselves... haix... TIREDTIREDTIREDTIREDTIREDTIRED.... i go sleep le... dun care abt everytime wat my blog sae that wat time i post the post... the time is WRONG... k nth to sae le... friday then sae... GOODNIGHT... continue to 3/4/2006(monday)
ok continue to the last post...veri bad luck... n after that PE lesson throw the ball accidentally hit a CHINA girl... accidentally lor... then she say i all dunno say i EXAMS also dunno.... those hu noe me noe that i m NOT stupid.... so y she sae i exams also dunno... then ppl thought she wan to throw the ball again but she say wan to throw me.... she ask me wan to try the feeling of getting throw at... as if i dunno... as if i never hit by a ball b4... and more than she could imagine... i m in the netball team b4 lor... get hit more often by the ball than her... than she say i dunno how to play then dun play lah... so fine...dun play then dun play lor... then she later go n complain to other ppl.... then got one i so call my friend..which is from CHINA lah.... she say that from the beginning of the year THAT girl noe that i curse her life.. wat the hell she is tokin... i curse her life... she curse mine lor... everytime after the science i will like sth gone or dissapear... or even NEARLY 4get to take my things from under the table... wa lao lor..she BITCH.. how can she say that... and than during chinese lesson... i take my math paper to do the last question... coz i dunno how to do so i ask my partner since she is from e1... n she is my old school-classmate.... than i kind of pled? o n take it back... than after school i go the library then got ppl check my bag n take my school tie... at first veri scare but good that my choir buddy got extra tie n she bring to school one...so she lend it to me... o she is such a life-saver... she is so good.... but i dunno wat my life will b since i make the china girl mad.. i sit with her during science lesson lor.. haix.... she is a curser... KEEP MY COOL... BYGONE B BYGONES... hate her.... but still good coz it is somehow still ok today... haix... end of post.. 3/4/2006(monday)
OMG....my life has been curse by someone today... todae i go to school find out that i 4get to do some questions on math.... but lucky teacher give us extra time to do... i go dinner later come back... 2/4/2006(sunday)
hii..todae is sunday....rained...so boring.... nth much to do... today have campus superstar... muz watch...wish zhiyang will win... been doin reflections again... thinks that now i noe how to control my emotions le... no need to act happy while u are not... so realli wish school will b more meaningful... still thinking that my frenz dun realli care abt me... mayb i think to much... y muz i let them destroy my beautiful life... i wish to ask... like u dun have a hp is a big deal arhz... i have but i didnt bring to school wat... they thought i m lying... hate it lor... they think wat?... they veri rich arhz... if i lie i still have a no. 4 wat... always take it out n check sms when noe tt there maynot b coz everyone around our age are in school... mayb is her parent... but her parent also muz noe tt she is in school studying... at least sms her after school... so y she keep taking out... n that is an old type of phone so take it out to show off at least muz have quality wat... those hu read my daily post plz dun suspect that i m saeing u... if u are not the one u WILL NOT EVEN FEEL ABIT THAT I M SAEING U... so dun suspect... ya...thanks 4 all of ur concern(again)... i can handle all my school stuffs...realli isthat i juz kan bu xun yan(chinese) one of my choir fren sae that those with long eye leashes are veri proud... bossy n look down on ppl... ya 2 of my fren is like tt.... but still dun suspect... if u are not wrong or gulity u wil not feel that i m saeing u... thay sae abt the type of shoe the type pf bag... o...muz b branded then can.... o i hate it... thich to change the fren circle group but cant coz it is juz weird... u have been with those ppl 3 months... u cant adapt to new things so quickly... so i SO wish i have a true-trust-worthy fren... old mates...u are already so dun tell me to hang otu with ur group... we are different class though n we arein different groups... i dun like getting new stuffs too much...depends... n i HATE SORRY TERRIBLELY... if they didnt do wrongly.....they will not sae sorry.. so y did wrongly n then later sae sorri... hate the sound of the word.. dunno y ... mayb bcoz i heard it too many times tis year...which is onli 3 months onli... JUZ HATE SORRY.... DOES HU READ TIS POST REAMAMBER I HATE SORRY.... hahaz.... recalling my motto.... keep cool n let bygones b bygones... good... byes....end of post... 1/4/2006(saturday)
hii...todae is 1st of april...HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY... countinue to yesterday post.... that person that own up saein he is the one is REALLI being bought down to the office... later he was back in class...quiet.... not long after desipline teacher of sec 1 come to our class... ask hu scold that word to own up... then the one hu sae he did it sae he is the one n another one sae he atually is the one not the other boy... they were later put to stand outside the class... to ask is there any other hu commited... there is and the teacher ask... by the count of three the person muz own up.... but tt culprit didnt own up... so he was being pull by the collar...n also get punish... n the three of them were punish... 1 of them shouldnt get punish lor... the real one should get it... so y not try... no one own up.... then the whole class get punish then MAYB the real culprit will realli feel GULITY... so he will admit.... this is wat i think... ya get to sth else... dun think of tt anymore... ya i perfrom yesterday n it is 4 the teachers tis time... there are other teachers from different school... n i saw my primary school chinese teacher!!!!!! MDM HO L.L.... hahaz..then i saw her while performing.... n i saw her smiling so i also smile with out reasons.... hahahahahahahahaz... ithink she is telling her freinds abt me... i look so ugly lor... with the SO thick make up... haix...n the hair also muz tie at the side... kind of act cute... N I M STANDING AT THE FIRST ROW..... o shit shit lor... but it soon over... haix.... atually nth much to sae todae.... do the same routine lor.... |
