SMILES

LIFE.

2009-07-24T21:19:00.003+08:00

well hello im back t post~
i try t update every wk k?
anw tis skin made posting seems v werid. but its ok! :D
i like self-entertainment. alot. like singing t myself. hahas.
i agree e world is a mad world. and life is a werid life.
and im sure there IS a soulmate out dere for u to find. so no giving up.
which tis leads to..I HAF NO FEEL. = i have not find my "feel"! lols. get it?
tt means seriously no crushing or sth ba. lols. im thinking too much in e first place i think. hahas.
so anw these few days were okay.
except getting piss off by some zhi da gui / er gui.
y tis type of ppl exsits? cant dey like do some self-reflection of themselves?
they r not tt perfect too oh please.
sometimes dey view themselves as e best. like hu will not?
but certain stuffs really have a limit...
like u cant say u have a small butt when obviously its gigantic or sth. rite?
anw plz tt DUDE..cn u dont show AP?
i may haf budden i not like u show it EVERYTIME OK? get some life. RESPECT OTHERS

anw t update sth.
I LOST TRACK OF MY DRAMA DREAM. @@
budden its okkay. i muz get use t it. since its a dream rite? LOL.
n i discovered i cn b super scary at times.
i cn b happy a min n growing wings e nxt min. lols.
sometimes i cn b so mad i even lost myself.
its like WOW.i dont even really noe myself. how werid.

HO AND RACIAL HARMONY DAY WAS A BLAST.
i did a..well..WILD thing budden its worth it.
it makes me realize u noe. abt certain thing.
and i love taking photos wif my idiotic face! ;D
i find it boring t pose wif same plain smiling pose.
sometimes muz do some cool one rite?
ANW LS WAS COOL. NICE WATCHING ANTM! it makes u cool. :D
so yup. a last kind of celebration tt will b so wild. i suppose.

OH SHYT. i lost track of my train of thots. just realize i blog wifout much feel too.
shud end here?
anw i wanna dream yeah. seriously :D
i just have plain sleep wif nth ya. @@
n math classes were fun. i like dem. XD
n time pass really fast. e sec hand on e clock is moving so fast its hard slowing it dwn.
like there WAS times when time r hard t pass.
budden someimes when u wan time t slow dwn it just cant.
anw im tired. shud turn in soon then.

annyeonghi jumusaeyo. (GOODNIGHT)

testing.

2009-07-23T22:44:00.002+08:00

OMG. i think there is sth wrong wif tis skin too..after i edited agn den i'll update. so long~ :D

DREAMS.

2009-07-16T20:14:00.006+08:00

i wont let tis blog die! hahas.
so as usual i will try t keep tis up. donno how long i'll cont. though. been busy.
busy with school. obviously rite?
tests are conducted for.. like every wk for.. every subjects....
like wat a life rite? hahs.
budden studying like nothing..a nothing anymore.
not as stress as other stuffs i suppose. like relations with others.
studying is dead. which is like numbing. there shudnt even b stress i suppose.
just use some words t replace e feeling we may feel when stuck with a particular qns. yup.
so im really flex up with school stuffs. finally able t relax.
TDY yup. tts y i decided t blog. :D
u dont usually get tis days whr dere is even a slot for u t blog u noe?
so i gg try n blog some thing out. hahas.

ANW
tdy sch ends early for me cause there is no aftenoon class.
bought a new earpiece/headset t fully b immersed by SUJU's music.
like e song : MONSTER. its nice! checked up e lyrics n its pretty cool.
went wif zien n tok quite alot. hahas.
we managed t find a table free in e library! like so rare. we wanted t mug a lil but ended up chatting. hahas.
quite a relaxing day. btw we saw some v rude dude hu finally gets seats..
seats coz its for 2 ppl t sit. BUT it ended up having him n his bag occupying e seats.
like wth. so inconsiderate. zien n i like chanting away. hahas.
i wanted t take a photo of it n send t Mediacorp for e "nu wang ben se" show.
he's somemore an educated person la PUH-LEASE? haix.
anw cant blame him. he looked like a complete disgusting a$$hole.

In e mist of trying t learn korean btw. korean is cool. korea is cool. hahas.
cant find other words t replace. lols. mind jams. really..seriously i donno wat t type le!
hmms i'll try t learn those koreans n come back wif some cool korean words k?
i shall go learn. XD bbyes!

REALIZATION.

2009-07-09T20:21:00.003+08:00

i think i shud blog. (:
anw i was thinking abt wat i shud do for e remaining 3months when i confirm e fact tt i flopped e easiest sub...chinese. -.-
"HI! ORAL SHARKS! :D"
get it? ...y wud tt qn even b considered a qn.
a successful person?! idk. alot of ppl lost e meaning of it long ago.
students like us study n study. everything e same. everyone doing e same.
no other choice. unable t go for sth even btr. sth we wanted.
wat i wished for when i was young just burst into thin steaks of paper..lost.
i noe u shudnt give up things without a fight. but..e results r out b4 e fight. so y bother?
get it?
u r treated badly if ur stupid..in my society. in my society..cert is everything.
e rules of e game stays e same.
just heard frm my dad..ite peeps cn attend polys too. (coz usually NTs straight went ite)
more competitons. please man let us get a life cn?
i know knowledge is eveything.
but if all u do is like sitting in an invisible cage-like cell n flooded with bks...i might as well forgo knowledge..do without it..
u cant really pursue anything without acknowledgements frm TT cert. GAWH. =.=
i agree t tis man. 'e min ur born in sing. , every moment is stress."
y cant we just chase the dreams we have since we're young?
learn things related t tt occupation?
teach lang. and basic math. abit of sci..when we're young.
and when we know whr t go..let us just head for tt..isnt it easier?
mayb its difficult t carry its out. but if u dint try how wud u noe?
how wud u noe it DONT work?
plus if u dint have a cert doesnt means u're really dumb or anything. seriously.
CERT IS EVERYTHING.

so last few days were spent with much ease.
(xcept for oral part..dont wanna mention.)
been acting crazy of some sort in sch..hahas..
banging ppl here n dere..loading gun..blahblah.
too boliao i guess..too nth t do i guess..
amath is like daze? emath worse.
btw i dislike humanities. =x
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEE! :D
KyuHyung wishing for u too~ hahas..

HAIX.
now i've just gotta pray tt remaining subs i will do my best n score well.
now e route b4 me is SO blurr im abt t cry.
i fall between gg t jc or poly. or i shud say..i really dont noe whr t go..
i just noe i gotta do REALLY well in e upcoming Os.
finally..finally im having some motivation t study.
just done all my hws. for tdy. weekend assignments? gg do it soon too.
if not i'll b idling mad.
watching tv is like blankly starring while mind is somewhr far.
cant hold on t tis relaxing style anymore.
gg collapse soon if tis go on. really gg crazy soon.
even gg t internet..or youtube seems t b a qn mark.
like wat i shud search..wat i gg t do wif e com? wat i wanna watch?
dead man.
thinking abt all most everything. all unrelated t tt tv prog.
cn someone save me?
even searching for suju's info lost it's meanings - the HIGH. even learning korean is like sth i cn nva master.
how? n e dreams are haunting me.
e min i close my eyes, same image pop out. n i noe i've not relax or really fall aslp.
coz im still listening t music. t me i noe i cant slp wif mp3 music still flooding in my ears.
budden as soon as i close my eyes, sth popped up.
m i too stressed out? n i've made an absurd promise in my tt dream.
n yet agn..i like t dream of tt.
its kinda like repeatation of previous dreams n proceeding t more.
a lil plus a lil. like drama series. like discovery t my future.
budden its super tiring. AND I KNOW IT CAN NVA COME TRUE..
so idk y its still sorta repeating? mayb im really mad.
too much stress abt sch and others? budden the dream is so unrelated?
now i hope i wont stop typing. if not i will b zombie-ing arnd e hse. @_@
n i feel like so emo? growing wings soon! XD
i keep like gg t cry. yet i cant. like cry for wat i oso dont noe. not tt VERY stress too.
just suddenly v sad. argh. n i told myself t anti-chocos. =\
so now mayb i'll go do those hws.

AN-YEONG~ [:

WEEKENDS.

2009-07-04T13:56:00.003+08:00

ohmy its saturday alrdy.
it seems like i was back t school like..2 - 3days only.
time spins. like wheel-o-fortune. O:
and i tot there is still half a yr more t Os. -.-
but the truth is no its half of tt half yr =..... >> 3mths! like WOW?
but the mood t it is like > I STILL DONT HAVE E "IT" T MUG. aww man.
wanna just sit dwn n do revisions instead of just completing e assignments given.
BUT. i'm like still only doing those homeworks . like wth.
how m i ever gg sit for Os and get good results?
seem like a far-fetched dream..t even get t a good poly. O:
fainting man. @_@
mayb i shud really sit dwn and do some reading of the text.
if not idk how m i gg t go t e examination hall without freaking out. =x

anw ytd SS lessons turned out that Mr M.Chua took over.
his lessons were..well..GOOD. :D
i understand what i initially understand abt SS.
cause i seem t b flying out of e SS cycle.
lost what i learnt and wrote just one yr ago.
the skills learnt were like woozing outta me..gone..and unable t b found.
but when he start t go through the step-by-steps, it kinda hit back t me....
i shudnt wrote like im not thinking.
or just practically crapping my way out. its all..LOGIC. really!
anw he asked us t try a qn in 7mins. i cmi. =x
although i kinda noe wat he was saying.
but t bounce back suddenly is impossible ya! (finding excuses i noe! ...)
anw i hope Mrs Yoong is alright. she's not sick or sth i hope. (:
**lucky M.C nva called for SS rep. or i die man. xD

btw..t update last few days~
nothing much really happened yup..
except..zien, shijia and felicia were all idolising e -Mr Men and Little Miss- small key chains. =x
hahas. and beechien and i were practically talking abt korean boy bands (e.g SHINee & SUJU) non-stopp! :D
apart frm tt we changed our class sitting arrangements!
im FIIIIIINALLLLY not sitting wif Shuan Ang! (Mr Stonefish)
n although i kinda communicated wif shuan n i seem t loosen up n kinda tok t him..(even if its ruderude way.)..yup.
and im sitting with Alvin! (a.k.a feifei) *4yrs classmate
cool har. budden he keep like give me e feeling im super lame. =x
butttt its alrighty! (:
and i managed t understand e last few chapts of amath! O:
such a miracle! hahas.
and i finished part of my painting(e eye) BY MYSELF! :D
im so happy..hahas.
i tot there were nth much t say but i said alot har. XD

+++++++I MISS CHOIR! +++++++++
its sad tt im no longer singing with all of you.
and i noe its late t say it now..
but i REALLY love & miss all of you n those times.
make choir proud ok?
dont let ppl look dwn on us anymore. ((:
i believe e future is bright for us. :D
if i gotta time n i noe e schedule i'll pop in t haf a look ok? :D
thanks for e farewell~ (:

OH. i type quite alot tdy har.
anw ltr gg go youtube agn.
youtube is cool you noe! those vids there r nice! :D
n funny..
haix ltr gg go complete tis weekends hws.
weekends no longer feel like weekENDs = relax-choya~
more like there is a missing word in between.
like it shud b called week-never-ends.
hahas. which like e work will never ends.
and i've been such a good girl recently! i went home immediately after school!
hahas. i deserved a round of applauses rite? *clap*claps* XD
okays im getting more and more lame..min by mins. =x
anw tis shud b more like a private blog.
which i wont tell ppl abt i suppose. lols. lazt t anw.
so tts abt it. wat i gg t say ba. :D

WELL IM BACK! :D

2009-06-30T20:25:00.001+08:00

YO! decided t post, t come back with a new blog..
anw this is my super old acc..
cause was pretty bored so decided t revive this shyt. =x
anw wanted t post cause there is practically nth t do other than tis.
after my com officially made me gave up on a game. =\
after Os ba. after Os then go back t it mayb?
been stuck with alot of rdm thots.
cant say it here or i'll b super PS.
XD
anw was glad tt sch reopened with so much happy air.
its like e atmoshpere is painted with bright yellow & orange.
AND i just noe frm my sis tt she is 54kg.
which she dont look like!
i will confirm b SO much heavier. =\

well, recently been having werid but cool dreams.
about sth tts so fantasy i can xplain. XD
its like..I KNOW its impossible t happen..but somehow i hope its real.
mayb i got those dreams bcoz part of the brain KNOWS im gg t have it?
or i wanted it too much?
make no sense t all..@@
just hope it cont. i wish the story t cont. although its absurd. XD

never studied during the holidays. sure die one.
haix.
budden too occupy with game already.
like Auditionsea.
changed ign t ~AMETHYST currently.
but too bad gg let it freeze while i go back t e track im suppose t do RIGHT NOW.
MUG LIKE I NEVER MUG B4.
hahas.
anw audition is so de-stressing laaaa. =x
gotta spam those buttons. :D
and play with ahxin.
created a fam called ~ThGEMS.
gg b blogger for e fam since cant go ingame.
visit lai~ http://thgems-fam.blogspot.com/
lols.

AND I TOTALLY HATED HWS.
i dont have e mood t do it at all.
especially with my study table tt messy. @_@
so been thinking whr m i gg t unlease my full force and mug like hell.
hahas.

AS I HAVE PRACTICALLY FORGOTTON SOME INFOS I WANNA WRITE..
im stopping here. gg go mug i think.=\

An interesting piece of letter..

2007-05-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

a piece of kind of touching letter i once receive frm my sister b4..
i will like to share it wif u all..

life can't be a bed of roses.
who han's experienced bad feelings before?
often we perceive the world as a too beautiful place,
but is it really that way?
Human beings changed rapidly.
from the B.C. period till now that we've so advanced.
however, hold it,
there's still people in the 3rd world country/countries that suffer every second of their lives.
Here we are,
having food,
clean water,
good medical facitlities and services,
holistic education,
fun entertainment and still_ are not satisfied with life.
It's because we get too much, and are forever uncontented.
But why must we be like this?
Is it really human nature that can never be altered?
we have to move on.
people who are handicapped or down with long-term diseases struggle to live and face life strongly.
yet we are still grumbling away, troubled over almost the slightest unpleasant things,
is it really fair?
we can't expect life to be always perfect for us.
we've to work it out ourselves.
How many people out there are truly helpless?
And we are still not satisfied? Come on.
There's still many aspects of life gor you to look into.
Please don't be stuck and stay at the point where you feel the worst.
Friends come and go.
Are you sure by wasting your time on them, you'll get repaid?
Things are not always how you want them to be.
Accept it and carry on.
Your time is only that long or short.
Can you use it wisely to having no regrets?
good friends are hard to come by. let the bad ones go.
treasure the once you still have around you.

very meaningful doesnt it?
delicated to all wif bad friendships and relationships.
b happy n smile..
_jessica_

okie~ miantiaining mie blog..!!

2007-05-06T15:42:00.000+08:00

okie~its lame..
anyway..i dun have anything much to post sia..
just trying to keep wat i siad by keeping tis blog alive!
n suddenly i think the blogskin is damn big..
but dun bother to change it..
some more really..the tagboard colour sucks so much..
try to change ASAP..
but den depends lo~ it takes me alot of time to change the tagboard colour..
i rather remain it the old style..classic..(((X
anyway..lif3 kinda interesting sia..
n den the damn exams is going come near liao..
n juz last week friday..
i got thye lifelit tests..okie..its should b an exam la..
n den i m like..i really hope can pass leh..
n den it is like i last min wan change sth den teacher asks me to stop..
wonder how much marks will b deducted frm tt ting..
very very the kana sai..
i wan pass!
anyway..very damn tired lately seh..
sleep around 9 plus lately..n sleep nearly the whole days during the weekend..
den its like..i used up nearlyall my savings liao..wonder how to survive..
really now really need to cut down on my spending habits..(((x
n i got a very gd news..mayb 4 myself la~
i lose 3 kgs again seh..n height increase abt 2cm.. :P
which 4 me is consider very gd liao..
hu ever saw my ez-link photo will b glad 4 me..
i look horrible n disgusting when i m in primary..
some more also got another gd news..no longer need change my spects..
i nearly change every year sia..
very happy no need change..
okie..juz feel very happy tis weekend..
n i love my darling BED!
i slack sleep slack sleep watch n eat everyday...
not eat every min la..erm..also got like do the basic rountine la..examples:bath, shit, quarrel..
ya quarrel..wat i did wif my kana sai younger sister everyday..
so let me say abt saturday..ytd..instead of the fustrating exam on friday..
so ytd i go out with dorin..((X
luckily can go out..coz she actually..like..
cha yi dian cannot go..
coz her mama dun allow..in the end lucky can..
so we go like..alot of place in compass..
anyway..also nth much to tok leh..
i just very scare she later emo..
anyway..i also damn sian..
nth much to post leh..
juz got to do somehow preparation 4 the upcoming exams..
n tell u the truth..nva touch bks till now..((x
n i hate exams..which go as well as every1 out there to..
hu will love exams plz~
its so like kana sai stress..
anyway..kept the alive thingy going..>.<

continueing of the ytd post..((x

2007-05-01T15:09:00.000+08:00

oh!i totally hates spelling..((x
i rally wonders wat the exact feelingof love..
coz the feeling of being love n loving someone is totally different..
abit too difficult to adapt..really
coz..nva asks me y..NVA...
i been thinking abt if i should or should not even starts..
m i giving myself stress?
actually i m soaring again..but now i seem to not..
i wonders if i will regret..some more exams coming up..
frankly..my results are not as great as it once used to b..
alot of tots juz runs through my mind....
nvm..i juz continue ytd post..like i said i will
so i noe wat my tests results are~
i got 35/50 4 my science test wor..first time pass my science test continuously..
wat u expect?chapt 5 k?keke((x
den math..i m happy i m one of the 19 out of 40 ppl hu pass the tests..
i go do all i noe one the rest dunno dun do..
so at least pass..but not in flying colours..is 20/35 only..
i wan MDN NG GH back!!!
she teach really better den mr GARYTAN..
i dun understand wat he teach lo..mdm ng teach le den i noe.. :P
so after tt..truth is i come liao dorin asks me if wan go out study wif her..
i c y not coz hor..no one at hm n nth to do..>.<
so hurry bath le go out..
den actually i like go there play onli sia..((x
den okay..cannot concentrates..so go wad brandon says the bomb shelter..
hahas..BOMB shelter..((x
so go there in the end is play only also..excepts 4 dorin there really very hareworking doin the hw..
okay..den later go brandon 's hse..
really very very sorry guy..we shouldnt go..let u kana scolding by ur mama..SRY!
anway..later something happened..okay dun feel like writing very tired..anyway..i next time got mood den continue tis part..
anywayi m really trying the keep the blog alive!cant tell rite.. :P

the second day of my posting!

2007-04-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

hahas dicided to post another one..
muz keep it alive like i said..
so..wat happen today was.
in the moringing i woke up..den go take my clothes..
yi bian brush teeth den yi bian bath..its seprated..brush liao den go bath..
bath liao come out..den do basic rountine lo..
which include rushing..
coz i will definately spend abt 20 to 30 mins in toilet..jaming the queqe of ppl behing me waiting to use the toilet..
mind u..almost always!(i like mr rahmat leh~)
anyway..after tt..no time sorush..i pack back everytime last min also..
n eat beakfast..rushrushrush..
get the senario?okie gd..art n dnt surely pass..((x
den it is 7:05 den bought my mama's car n go school..
in between the rides i m there comping my lovely hair..next time i continue ba..parent scolding me..!c i so wan to keep tis blog alive..((x

The day i change my skins again!

2007-04-29T16:47:00.002+08:00

ITS april 29' 07!!!
the day i change my blog skins again..the address i change also..
but the links i kind of accidentally erase n lost the old ones..
so if come accrosee my blog plz leave ur blog add n i will relink u..
so MANY things happen tis 4mths..
whe n shall i begin?
lets say the janarary was an okie month..
i met n got well wif my new classmates..
i tok to them n discovered tt one of them was my ex-kindergarden fren..
Singapore is sure small..
n den it is like everything went on smoothly..but i dun like the new indian girl..
she keep sticking to her n me..
is like..it seem as my whole class does not like her also..
one of my class boy teast her n so called "express" his <3 for her..
so very funny..
but i not really tt heartless la..
i still got tok to her..but tell u frankly..erm she gots BO!
hahas..
okie..i m getting mean..continue..=.=
den it is the mth where alot of sec1s join my cca..
bcoz mainly we needed ppl so my conductor do a whole sec1 vocal test..
tts y got so many ppl..
i m so very happy to c the no. of ppl turning up..
but sadly..a few leave but mostly..which is really MOSTLY..stayed..i mean after the first meeting..
den we were like bonding togeher so very well..
<3 them..n sadly..tis very week wednesday will b the last day they in choir..mostly too..
y..coz every single 1 of us are given a contract tt we will stay put in choir without in other cca till the end of SYF..
so i think tts y some of the sec1s stayed..
but at least dey stayed..
got a few actually wanted to say but bcoz of the amount of pressure we exert on them during tis 4mths of preparation 4 SYF..
dey in the end decided to leave..such a pity!
really hoped dey stayed..
really very very sad..
the seniors too sia..
the sec4s..gonna miss them too much..them are such a bunch of seniors tt will brighten up ur life almost instantly..
dunno wad will I do without themm
really really miss u guys!no matter u all are still wif us or not..ur heart n contribution to the choir will always keep us lifted!
<3ing u all ..
it goes as well as to the sec 1s..no matter if u decided to leave the choir..i will too miss u..
coz u practice as hard alongside wif the rest of us..coz u noe eventually u need to go..coz the stress u cant take it..
or ur parents are thinking tt it takes too much of ur time..
anyway..u all can come back whenever u wan..the door is open 4 u..
our aim 4 getting gold in 2yrs time muz b realistic..
i will miss u all 4 sure!
the time we once had..the happy moments we've got..
the joy we have when we gai wat we had
all our efforts did not goes to waste guys..
we miantain a silver..we didnt drop..like wad mr foong said..we strive..so here we are..we will relise the gold in 2yrs time..we will..coz I will!
i getting emotional liao..
argh!
anyway..i dun really wan tok abt the past..
let me tok abt sth juz recently happened..
on friday..got a damn stupid cross-country run..
muddy..damn it..
luckily..i got event on the afternoon..
go to dorin's hse[my lao po hse((x]
n she is so kind..she let me take a shower at her hse..my skin can breath after tt..((x
we go out..wif yunxin as well as yun xin's gd fren..charmine..
as well as dorin's blinddate fren..so call a date la..
n u noe wad..it is the first time i was said not wearing an auntie outfit..
n i really thing i look gd in the mirror..
discovered a musical note necklace in my addidas bag..
juz wear it((x
so i was wearing a purple colour top with black strip n inside got a tank top la..okie i noe it is purple again..n kind of normal shorts..
u noe y i m telling?coz i rarely dress until ppl say not auntie..so must say...((x
n it is we go yoshinoya eat liao den go meet her blinddaters..
so funny..we decided to change name..
i was dorin n dorin was me..charmine was yunxin n yunxin was charmine..temporary..((x
so very funny..den we like finished liao go walkwalk lo..den we were at 77th street..
den dorin's daters called..den we told them we were at 77th street..okie..
did i tell where we are?its plaza sing..((x
den we told them we were at 77th street n dey say dey dunno where the place is..i was like..
please~did dey come here b4?
den later dey say dey go find us..
but den after so long haven come..i like wanting to like i rather sleep at home.. :P
den later i think dey lost their way..we called them agin..
tis time i called bcoz dey say wna play the change name den is i suppose to call lo..
so i call..
n dey say dey dunno where dey are..lost the way..omg..so funny..den later the other guy take the phone n say dey at the wad..jia di an mo there(it is in mandrian)
den we thinking it might b the osim exibition..luckily we ARE smarts..
so later still cannot find them..den i m to call again..
so i call lo.. den is like yi bian call yi bian c where are dey..
den think saw 2 guys..black n white tee..
like couples sia..the bag also same..
den i m like dunno..den later dey ended up behind me..i m like i really dunno lo..
den later the 3 invincible ppl in front didnt ell me den later den tell me n i was like..
my HACK! did were den laughing..okie so they think i m dorin..
den it is like we go the bunk ar?wad they say bunk play AUDITION?!?!=.=
but in the end cannot so go acarde..which is juz opposite..((x
den dey play..i play..dey think i play all those games very lame..
but den not lo..i think is the only nice game tt can b found anywhere..
den later yunxin n charmine go liao..actually charmine very early go le..coz she need reach home by 4..
n later we 3 go arcarde wif them..den later yun xin go liao left me dorin n them..
den it is like okie..boring..den wad happen next is my eyes hurts AGAIN! actually it is okie by afternoon n hurts again.
.i feel like jumping down the instant..
so i wan go buy eyemo but sensitive..so dgo carefour c go other type one..
in the end i but my CHOCOLATE!long time nva eat the TIMEOUT!hahas
i just dun care..
den later okie again..den later decided to go watch movie!watch 'meet the robinson'..
excuse me it is not childish..very funny n cute sia..especially the little boy (4gets the name liao) n the dino..so cute!
den dorin go buy her bag..i choose one wor..i got taste sia..((x
but den not my money..den it is like first time in my everyday life going shopping i feel uncomfortable...
y coz got ppl walking behind..haix..4get abt tt..
so we were like goin to every single store..i wan go MOTHERLAND!coz the toy inside very cute..
but den dorin say when i have baby den go in..erm..think too much liao..
so miss the shop..ya..b4 we go to the shop hwere dorin bought her bag..
den we were like trying to go to other shop without them noeing..then i did it..
we 'sneak' into the shop where dorin bought her bag n i felt so FREE!
happy!but den later okie lo..go eat..have a little conversation..den dey go arcade again..n i c the wrong escalator..
i go eat..eat a damn po pia..
so not nice..sucks too much onions..recommendation dun ever go try plaza sing popia..yucks..
den we later go home lo..exchang eno. okie..den like tt..end..i think i feel more comfortable wif my aunte look sia..((x anywa..i wan go watch tv..
end here ..
try to keep tis blog alive..the every month thing next time say..
anyway try to post everyday n keep it alive!okie.. bb

Wednesday, Janurary 03, 2007

2007-01-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

hies!school has started n juz a blink of eye it is 2007!!!
n back to school is the best n fun part
i get to meet new ppl..
ppl tt juz join the 2E5 big family!
altogether 4..but noe 3 the guy..4get it(hahas)
n u noe wat..a girl..chinese girl..frm china
same school as my elder sis b4 n same cca too..
but best of all she noe my sis!!
i noe it IS kkinda lame but juz bare with it..(-.-"')
n i cut my frindge..hate it..sux!!!
no choice..cut le..cant possible put back the hair rite?
so juz wait 4 it to grow again..
n it will take ages!!
but..it not tt bad actually..kinda cute la..
but den..i still dun like it..
i look like a completely idiot!!
but 'always look on the bright side of life'..
n bought the new pe shirt too..not bad actually..
but it look like a turtle shell(my mum said it)
got to buy a new bag so end here!!!
P.S i m so HAPPY..n i m gonna change my blogskins soon wor..

thrusday, 14 december, 2006

2006-12-14T17:26:00.000+08:00

hies!
come back to update abit..
i have a great holiday!
have a trip to malacca WIF OUT ur parents..
so fun!
n things actually happpen as well..
got bad n gd ones but coz LAZY so dun feel like writing..
learn alot through the trip.
alot of new things tt will help the choir in the future..
but i need to do it myself frst..
coz i also not really find how to lift the cheek bones n drop the jaws at the same time..
but i will pracice!LOL
anyways...
bond together quite well wif my fellow choir mates..
n share our ambitions 4 choir..
as well as academic acheivements..
hope all our efforts 4 next year SYF will b enough..
gonna hit the higher expectations tt the choir have together..
anyway..
i dun feel like writing much coz just a moment b4 i write tis..
i actually write a even longer one..
but thanks to my favourite computer..
jam while i was puplishing..
gd..spoil my beloved nice happy mood..
anyway..(3rd time)
hope next year will b a fresh n happy start 4 me..
coz b4 tis end-of-year holidays..
i actually turn sour wif my frens..
n not to mention anything again..
juz hope the PIG year is nicer..
but i guess not..
the amount of pressure n stress will b FANTASTIC!
n i dun think i will wan to b like the pig..lol..
juz end here..5.37pm
P.S hope my com wont jam..LOL..

friday,october 26 '06

2006-10-06T16:05:00.000+08:00

today is the day i change my blog..
tis suit me alot..
bcoz i was in tis state..
thinking every single day..
n i finally found the answer..
i think tis is the answer..
some1 wants to frame me..
so as to let every1 thinks i backstab them..
i dunno y she wants to do tis..
but wat has it do gd to her?
letting me being things as a backstabber by every1 makes her happy i think..
but i dunno hu she was..
i was thinking mayb it was her..
hu think i everything goes her way..
hu things i cucu zhen dui ta..
but does she noes if i were to noe n spoil her beautifully designed plot..
will any1 ever trust her again?
y didnt any1 tells me hu says all those rubbish and craps..
den i can spoil her beautiful plot..
but please trust me..
y should i wan to backstabb all of u?
wat actually makes me feel if i was to noe ppl say i bac stabbed u all?
when i didnt did anything..
n can u find any suitable reasons y should i do tt?
dun ask me y or how i will noeppl say i backstabbed u all..
cause tt someone tells me n ask menot to tell any1 tt she tells me..
c..ppl tells me..ask me..cause they noe i wont do all tis..
but y couldnt the others do the same?
y they believes the other party without asking me in person..
i wont denied wat i say if it really is the truth..
i m not the natural human u say will denied the truth..
but y couldnt u all juz tell me?
y u all wan to do all these to me?
have u ever wonder ,some of u,if it is not 4 me..will u still b with the friends u are with now?
plz..i never hurt any1..
ppl juz add salt n sugars to wat i had said n turn a bad compliement to a more worst n nastier one..
plz ppl..can u juz believe me?
if u think some1 is trying to spoil my reputation..plz tell me..
who she is n y she says..
cause i noe i had been frame..
n once i expose tt person true colours..
u all will noe i m frame..
so plz..believes me..
i no made no one my enemies..

fridae,august 25 2006

2006-08-25T21:02:00.000+08:00

hies!!deicded to change my blog but still dunno change to wat style...
thinks best choice go blogskins find...hehe...
n then next week then i think i will create a full new post again...with new skins..
so wait till then...
sigining off...8.53pm

mondae,14 august 06

2006-08-14T17:07:00.000+08:00

the old jessica was dead todae..
she was a memory of the new jessica now...
n as the new jessica starts her life again...
everything seem to follow as the same..as b4..but it will soon change...
change bit by bit without any1 noticing...
n by the end of it...u wont even realise she changed...
so here she will come contining...the new jessica..
with her past plus her new...

hies...i was here again in front of my com n writing a new post...
the old jessica had enough n it is time 4 me to take over...a new her...
y was i saein so...
she was...having too much already...it is time to reflect on her doings 4 the pass few years...
n she started to realise...things REALLY changed without her noein...
which is wat she decided to stop n have me over...
although i m the same self u seen..i may not b doin the same as ever...
she will stop..when she realise that when the world changed...she muz get along...
so i took her place n change into a new me...
a new her...so she ,as i mention,dead...
on MONDAY,14 AUGUST 2006...at a time of 2pm..
thats y she will not b here anymore...to tell u more of herself when i took over...
so i juz took over...n to tell u..i was in the bluez which she changed into me...
so i juz sae some of her...
she will never tok too much...when it is nth got to do with her...
n she will not ever sae any1 pairing up with any1 else...
coz it is disgustin to be said by other ppl with her...
so she wont sae anymore...
she will also...not do other things tt she is not suppose to interfere or to care abt...
she will juz care a bt herself...
that is wat she said b4 she changed into me...n when she said that...she was sad all over...so when she changed into me...
i got the bluez...but nvm
i will get over it...
n the things i listed above is wat i will do from now on...
frm now on n 4EVA...
n when 2mr continue..
i will start eveyting 2mr...
coz watever happened todae...i wont remember...n the past...i dun care...
so i stop here...n may she rest in peace...5.16pm

mondae,august 7 2006

2006-08-07T17:49:00.000+08:00

hies...
long time since i post again...
i having common tests...n i failed my science...but nvm...
i will strive to get gd marks 4 next term...n i will
n i will prove to everyone that i will pass my science...(the least)
wrap-up on tis few weeks...
the mock elections thingy...
hehe...alot of ppl noe is i sing one but some ppl dunno...
so to tell u...is i SING de...hehe...(not trying to show off)
n alot sae i sing well...one of my seniors sae...E5 is the onli class that didnt sing out of tune...
cool huh...coz is i sing de wat...(not trying to b pround ((X )
n my friends sae too...
some more...last week happen quick a few bad plus gd stuffs....
as i sae...last week is having the performance...
so we did well..so is one of the gd thing...
the bad thing is...on the last day of last week...
we have a serious aguement plus fight...between the boys...
erm...to declare...i didnt actually care much since it is none of my bussiness anyway...
so i m totally dunno...i go to school todae as usual...(of course)
then i tok to the 'bastrad' they sae...n i dunno they are having a cold war...
i really DUNNO...n bcoz of tt they sae bad stuff abt me...
but nvm...it is kinda clear...
n he lies...coz every1 c he beat the other boy...
n he sae he didnt...haix...he shouldnt...juz sae the truth...i m not doin the side thingy
but majority wins...
so i believe n trust n understand now the whole situation from beginning to the end...
n so he is lying...i now thinks i kinda stupid...
n y didnt any1 tell me u are having a COLD WAR with him...
it is not even...'seen' as if i noe...
he is still tokin to arkar they all...so i thought nth is happen...
N I DUN EVEN THINK ABT WAT HAPPEN ON TT DAE...
haix...nvm...
u noe wat...after saein...i feel happier...
i get my scince fail n my parents didnt even scolded me...
hehe...happy 4 me...
no homework too wor...
tomorrow national dar celebration...
sec 1 learning journey...hope it is a good learning journey we have...
but the onli think is i hope things will turn up better 4 me...
n life b better 4 me...i should shut my mouth n brains on gossips stuffs...
too much is not gd 4 our health..hehe...now too much is nonono good...
i think i will end here...6.05pm

mondae,,july31 2006

2006-07-31T20:46:00.000+08:00

hies!!!
i have so many fan nao now...
i got common tests coming up...
got practices 4 choir 4 the national day...
i got the mock election thinks to handle...
plus piles n piles of homework that stack a new one everyday...
so stress...onli sec 1 n i have so much stress...
how m i goin to handle the stress that is addin up when i move on to higher sec?
i wonder if mayb goin higher nhigher i can handle...
n i think i realli can handle...
i need to rest..
coz sick..
sao end here n have a gd night sleep...8:47pm

FRIDAY,july 21 2006

2006-07-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

hies...come n post again....
nv get enough sleep lately...
so tired...*YAWN*
wan to sleep...really...but juz cant...
stupid sia....the eye bag is sooo heavy...abt to close shut liao...but i m juz so active...
dunno y i nowadays...
like going to school...
n sometimes dreaded to go...
n u noe...todae we actually goin to sae the election ralles things..
but because of some mistakes n faults that we made...
it is not a success...so we ask the teacher 4 another chance..
n we have it...
hey support 1E5...cause...we are united in hearts...
although we didnt show it on our faces...
but we are truely united...
yesterdae got a concert...
so nicee...if i explain in details it will b veri the long...n langy...
just noe that it is super duper nicee...
n i m now in a serios modd swing state..
i dunno how to do the explantions...
but i now think things strange n stupidly...
i think i have so many time to things tis type of things my exams are getting lousy...
so MUZ really put tis things aside...
n think of the best...
i muz study harder now...MUST...
end here...
the more i writes...i really getting sleepy..lols
good night...n sweet dreams 4 me todae...10pm

thrusday,july 13 2006

2006-07-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

ooooooooooooooooooooooo...today is a hell n freaky day...
i am in a mess i dunno how to clean up...
u can sae so lah...but i m just too over reacting...
today..as usual have cca...then later as usual too...have breaks during the cca...cause sectionals...
then i will usually go n c badminton...
cause nth better to do...
which is really true..have breaks like hell...
can relax lah but nth to do...nth much to do...
so like i sae i was watching badminton as usual...
guess wat...
i saw 2 guys that i didnt want to c at this time of the day in a place like this...stay put there...
hey if that the thing...i rather go to a place i not usually go...
i ask my friends go..
n the hell they were n all were going the same place...the usual spot...
n bcoz of them...
i didnt watch badminton!!!
n then i going to bored to tears...
then i have enough...so i go there but in the end still didnt go...shit...it is shit...
so i run n hide...
n all my friends are there calling my name so loud...
i already tell them liao...do it on purposely...
i noe to sabo me....
hey u SHOULD noe i not going there intendtion...
u all purposely...
argh!!!!n it is shit...the whole incident from top to bottom.
ok...i m not mystery anymore...
happy?i m so...argh....
today the weather is nice...
n school is quite good...
our form teacher didnt come today...yeah...not a lesson on zeros....
n have sore troat...
waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh....
i m ugly...i m shit...i m junk...just dunno me if u do...or dun realli...b near me...
i will never forget this...never.!!!!!!...................8.43pm

july 11 2006(tuesdae)

2006-07-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

heyhey...hello...long time no blog liao...lol
actually there is a lot to sae just too lazy to blog...
duno when to begin...
let c....
.....................o yar...
let begin last month...
o i cant recall...lame...dun care what happen...everyting last time is history...
abt history...our class is totally against her...y?
she seem to dun like me..her look towards me n other ppl is different...
but i m not that bad...or bad for ur info...
haix...hu cares anyway...at least i try to understand what she is trying to tell us n what she is showing...
but...the truth is i DUN understand at all...i just stare at her...
i still have the lame thought that history is going to b a wonderful subject but...
cause last time my tution teacher sae history until it is like a heaven subject...
today choir again...it rox...
no practice...jus playing, having fun, being wild...
n y muz mr foong(conductor)so fast come back...aiyo...
or this thrusdae will have fun time again...lol
am i suspecting or is it really...
i feelthat i really likes someone..
which is sosososoooo....how to put in words...
strange...cant b true lor...
but i promise not to like anyone anymore...
for ur info...i actually younger...likes someone...but that someone dunno...n in the end finds out he like someone n that someone likes him...so i just give it up...
it is quite a few months back...
thats y i always sae i never will fall in love again...
n is really true...so abt the bf thngy is joke...cause i always seperate girls from boys...boys from girls...
so alot will ask hu is this...n it is under boys..so i sae bf lor...
actually all is my friends...
i treat everyone equally...
but y people,youngsters nowadays...
is like avoid each othe sexes...i dun understand...
i just dun understand...
end here...byes...night..10pm

wednesdae,31 May 2006

2006-05-31T14:07:00.000+08:00

hiies.....
i m so...arhz...
hatred...
feel that i m being a spoiled child...lolx...
i keep doin the opposite of wat my parents sae lor...lol...
today actually plan to go out...
but totally no..i juz dun like goin out with my parents...
feel that they are not giving u face...
do stuffs u hate to c or to noe...
so it is normal that nowadys teenagers dont like togo out with their parents...
n they treat u like a baby...not grown-ups...
arhz...kinda stupid...
n dun care abt their appearance while outside...
haix...
arhz...i feel like i not the 'chinese' i use to b...
i think i suddenly turn into the 'english' side...
mayb u dunno wat i mean but it is OK....
end here...very bored...nth to sae much...

fridae,26 may 2006

2006-05-26T21:44:00.000+08:00

arhz...
finally...holiday!!!
a long holiday....
can de-stress liao...
feeling so tense up tis couple of weeks...
busy with exams...hiax...
my results sucks....i get so low...i...haix...drop...too much le...
although i didnt fail but is like...haix...same as fail...no difference...
try harder next term...do revision tis holiday....
but not everyday lor....hahas...
MOTTO:LET BYGONES B BYGONES....
muz remember always...
stand up again after falling...
that should b the way...
the problem is i dun have the heart to do it...
i have the idea of doin it but not have the ability to show/do it...
still cant find the reason...4 sth...not goin to sae here...private..:P
OMG...should i...haix...continue to do the same thing...
haix...
i swear i will b a whole new person after the hoiliday...
a person with personality...
hahas...hope it really happen as said...
o...remember i sae 'hate BGR.'....
actually...is juz sth happen recently...nth serious....
doesnt wan to mention it either...
now i think i keep something to myself instead of typing everyting here....
arhz...hated myself terriblely...
so lazy...n onli thinks stuff that is none of my business or to care abt 4...
always drift into thoughts of RUBBISH...
hahas...arhz...heck care anyway...
if i care more i will think morr...
i think tis doesnt help me much...by thinking those RUBBISH...
should care more abt myself...my stuffs...my world...my place...not other STUPID issues...
mayb saeing here will let me feel beter but it doesnt realli help...
but at least if u find me siting there doin nth...n juz staring...
i start 'drifting' again...
tap on me or call me to distract my thoughts but dont call my name out loud..
not nice to do so..hahas
been so strange lately...
dunno y i m doin sth that i dun realli noe abt...
bcoming more n more...complicated...
arhz...aiyo...end here...doesnt want to carry on...bored...haix...

thrusdae,25 may 2006

2006-05-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

arhz...
stressed...
totally...lost in the world of mine...
cant feel anymore...
behaving in a manner i dunno...
bcome truely strange...
weird...complicated...
it's so complicated~...
is crying a solution?
can crying realli cure stress?
can crying let u feel better...?
lighter?or feeling free...?
sorry wat happen today...
i have no rights to scream...shout...
it is like i m acting...
i feel 'gulity'...
hated myself...feel like doin the impossible...
dunno...dunno y...
i cant described the things happen i me...
i cant explain...arhz...
to much stress liao...
erm...dunno if i can freeze myself...
so i m cold so i wont feel anything...
hahas...hate...BGR thingy...hahas
end here...

wednesay,24 May 2006

2006-05-24T18:26:00.000+08:00

o...i so hate myself now...
i juz hate my present...
hope to let everyone hate me...
making way 4 ppl to hate me...
it is sooo easy...
juz sae bad things infront of the person...
n then they will b angry..
n hate u...
U c...
I now have a HUGE problem...
i hate someone...call tt person...PIG...
nearly all my friends hate her...
but whenever i sae her...i feel...hurt...
feel that i m doin tis bcoz...i FEEL that everyone hate her...
so i SHOULD hate her as well...
but...i cant bring myself to do it now...
now she is begining to hate me...the PIG...
not my fault...
it is juz...she should blame it on her mouth n her physical...
she is juz sooo...
EXTRA...
watever n where ever we are she will try to spoil it....
spoil the mood we are in...
o gosh...if u dun understand it is OK...
n then after we are gone bcoz she is there...
she will sae ill things abt us to the ppl around her...
does she has any face...
doesnt she noethat every galz in the class dun like her at all..
shameful...
n today i fufil my wish...
i let ppl hate me....
which is OK...sucessful..
not that i sae it here means i doest mean wat i sae...
or i wan u all thing that i m 'innocent'
it is juz...
haix...i wan to...erm...keep here as a record...
mayb u dun understand tis line too...
coz i not inderstand wat it means either...(:
i juz feel...
it is my faults...
i have too much thoughts...
is it true that pisces drift into thoughts more than other horoscopes...
i think so...
i m always thinking...that i m then most not welcoming person in the whole class...
feel that all the ppl in the class dun like me...
haix...
y?
has it anything to do with wat i m?
wat i do...
wat i show?wat i show to ppl wat i m kind of like?
is it?
m i bad...
m i ...really wat it is all mentions above...
i think so...
think so...
dunno...
ahh...
too much le...
i cant stand it...

friday,12 may 2006

2006-05-12T16:47:00.000+08:00

hie...no time since i post...
or onli abt a week or 2...
i m studing 4 my exams...
not wanting to post...at all when i online...
tired...stress...pressure...
i feel sad...broken hearted...
dunno y...coz i noesth i shouldnt noe...haix...
y is life so unfair to me...
let me feel the pain in stead of any1 else..
i mean y muz i b the onli one tt been throuh all those hardship...

saturday(6/05/2006)

2006-05-06T13:26:00.000+08:00

hie...
been lazy...haha....doesnt feel like blogging when online...
there is always sth to sae...
everyday to me has a point a meaning...a...a..wat?
juz that everyday there is sth 4 me to sae...
if that the case then everyday i muz online to blog...
so now i think i will make a conclusion...
blog when nessasary...:)
wonder when will i start revising...and which sub. first...
feel that i m always confused.....n...i cant make decision....
n think that i m testing my friends' limits...
feel that i m acting...everytime...
to b happy...when i m realli not at all...
ahhhhhhhz.............
y muz i noe sth i m not suppose to noe...
y?...should i give up...everytime....when i didnt feel like trying...or afraid to try...
try...to overcome my own blocks of hard stone...
higher n higher...surrounding me....thicker n thicker....
n no one is there to help ...erm...to protect?
not tt i m 'weal'...erm is juz that....
feel that i cant get past my own block of walls....so how m i suppose to reach out to others?
but there is A hole...juz that hole....cant explain...
dunno how...n i think none of u get the idea...none...
i think i juz hide...:)...
there is no way ppl can understand me...
n plz dun think u realli understand me...
coz i cant even understand myself...
so dun think that wat i do is wat u think n wat i do u can understand...
i cant find someone to trust...
whole-heartedly no...
i juz cant let anyone understand me...
coz i m trying to understand myself first...
b4 i can so called open my 'gate'...
the gate to the 'hard stone building'...
i m telling u tis coz i have been peirce several times by my friends...
so i cant let tis happen to myself again...
it is hurtful...
can u believe u b so good to someone n that someone keep betraying u n u keep forgiving...n then one day u cant stand it bcoz that person realli leak out ur secret..
n is sth u keep repeating not to tell but in the end is leak out...n u finally did not friend that person n that person is very is 'sad'...so bao chou n leak out all of ur secrets...
n u are being said by others... n being left alone...
n u trey to act as nth have hapen...
ok...i tell already...
sth i always hide...
finally i sae it out..
crying now..
cant keep thinking that the same thig may haoen again...
so try to 4get...
my motto...let bygones b bygones...
cant sae anymore...
end of post 4 now...2.03pm

27/4/06(thrusdae)

2006-04-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

hii...sorri 4 not blogging lately...
lazy...n sick...
not serious....
at least still can sing...lalala~
quite dull lately.........
got LOTS of homework...
n cannot understand wat teacher is teaching.....
haix....life 4 me is SOSOSO difficult tis year.....
mayb is part of growing up....
haix....of couse is NO...
growing up has nothing to do with fate/destiny...
it is a process...
haix....mayb tis is part of the PROCESS that i need to go through....
talk about hard luck.....n hard life....but is temporary...
wonder how to stop coughing...hate it...cant REALLY sing properly...
although IS can sing la....arhhhhhhhhhh...
todae is a bad day...
wonder how m i goin to face school 2mr....???
arh....own ppl money.....but i promise i will return monday...swear....
cant own anymore...
it is like a lousy day...
although i believe in seeing a rainbow is good luck for the day....
y is it always like tt....but at least has a tiny bit good...
feel like screaming but cant....
feel like drowning myself but cant....
feel like having sth washed against me /knocked against me but cant...
feel like stop the world 4 a moment to really get all the thing that happen so quickly into my mind but cant...
feel like turning time back but cant....
feel like poison myself....so i would die n 4get wat happen through my life but cant...
feel like doin sth impossible but cant....
feel like doin a lot of things...but no time...
arhz....
feel that watever i wish 4 will come true...
feel....feel....y not think....
stupid me...stupid...
y...Y i feel that my mind is sleeping while myself is awake....active...
YYYYYYYYY...tell me...
stress...mayb...too much worries...mayb...
mayb... is not an answer....i wan an answer....help me...
or i will break down soon...collapse...n paralysed....
n y muz i spend SO much money juz bcoz i feel like it n not think abt it....
abt wat happen if i spend too much...
y muz i keep askin my mum to change my phone....y...
again feel....i dun wan too much power on FEEL ....i wan to THINK...
but God give me so much feel to think....
sth amiss i can feel...
i can realli do so if u believe...
u may thing tt it is weird n disgusting...
but it is all true...
can u believe that ur dreams will come true after A year or A FEW months or even days???
i can....true...
so i so pray tt some of the dreams may not come true bcoz it is bad dreams....
real bad....
i can think but not tt much...
i can think but once i give wat i think..
ppl seem not to understand AT ALL...
y...those realli understand me will noe...
but i stil cant find anyone hu will spare their time to find out wat i mayb feelin or thinking....no...
not even my family...
they keep saein u understand someone inner not outter(chinese)
but they dun understand me at all
onli c the cover always...
arhz.....can someone plz nderstand me...so tt watever isae u will listen understand n give the right opinion...
i doesnt wan to sae anything else...
juz telling u all that i m not wat i look outside...solid....or never will cry...
but plz....think...dun b like me feel...
n is realli correct sth...
stop here...doesnt wan to sae anymore ar...haix...
bye....good evening to all of u....5.50p.m

20/4/2006(thrusday)

2006-04-20T18:13:00.000+08:00

hii...didnt post lately coz VERY busy with the public performane...
but it is over liao...
have lots of worrys in my mind...dunno how to explain...
veri fan...
wish to know how to solve it...
there is the thing abt the *girl...n the *boy....
in my class....the *girl seem to like the *boy....
but i dunno anything...
is my friends observe one..
n they dun like her...
with REASONS....
erm...bcoz...
she is erm..bad????
she kind of use A title to cover all her misdeeds..
she never thought that if she write tt person name...too many times...
that person may have a record....i think so from all ppl...
nearly..=)
n she act..she should like b angry rite..but she is like laugh with us when sth is funny n wrong at the same time...
she should not laugh lor...coz she is doin sth wrong also...
that is like...cant explain...
those kind of thing u will feel...
is like ''euk''~
it is like act bad...fierce...haix...onli when *boy sae she will also sae..
haix...2mr still got running......
juz feel...somehow the world turn against me...
haix...everything i do is not tt smooth...
haix...sian...
end here...
haixhaixhaixhaixhaixhaix...

7/04/2006(friday)

2006-04-07T21:01:00.000+08:00

a promise a promise...
i sae i give a quite web-ups..
i swear that i will b early from now on...
dun do last minutes work...
n got lots of choir pratices...
ya i thin 2mr then i post...
veri tired...
go sleep...
i surely can remember wat happened tis few days...
n 2mr have more things to write coz still got choir...
siansiansian...
n my blog temporary dun have songs...
coz i m finding a new one..
NIGHTY NIGHTS...

5/4/06(wednesday)

2006-04-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

skip blogging 4 a few days....
real busy lor...
suddenly the hw grown....
tired...n stress out...
how body bad...ache...
i somehow grown nearer to one of my frens but somehow apart from others...
still feel weird though....
but i am fine...
i have so havey loads...
atually nth much to sae...
the same thing...
dun realli feel like saein wat happen tis few days...
i think friday i will give a quick wrap up on wat happen this week...
coz 2mr got practice again...
n muz sell the tickets lor....or buy ourselves...
haix...
TIREDTIREDTIREDTIREDTIREDTIRED....
i go sleep le...
dun care abt everytime wat my blog sae that wat time i post the post...
the time is WRONG...
k nth to sae le...
friday then sae...
GOODNIGHT...

continue to 3/4/2006(monday)

2006-04-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

ok continue to the last post...
veri bad luck...
n after that PE lesson throw the ball accidentally hit a CHINA girl...
accidentally lor...
then she say i all dunno say i EXAMS also dunno....
those hu noe me noe that i m NOT stupid....
so y she sae i exams also dunno...
then ppl thought she wan to throw the ball again but she say wan to throw me....
she ask me wan to try the feeling of getting throw at...
as if i dunno...
as if i never hit by a ball b4...
and more than she could imagine...
i m in the netball team b4 lor...
get hit more often by the ball than her...
than she say i dunno how to play then dun play lah...
so fine...dun play then dun play lor...
then she later go n complain to other ppl....
then got one i so call my friend..which is from CHINA lah....
she say that from the beginning of the year THAT girl noe that i curse her life..
wat the hell she is tokin...
i curse her life...
she curse mine lor...
everytime after the science i will like sth gone or dissapear...
or even NEARLY 4get to take my things from under the table...
wa lao lor..she BITCH..
how can she say that...
and than during chinese lesson...
i take my math paper to do the last question...
coz i dunno how to do so i ask my partner since she is from e1...
n she is my old school-classmate....
than i kind of pled?
o n take it back...
than after school i go the library then got ppl check my bag n take my school tie...
at first veri scare but good that my choir buddy got extra tie n she bring to school one...so she lend it to me...
o she is such a life-saver...
she is so good....
but i dunno wat my life will b since i make the china girl mad..
i sit with her during science lesson lor..
haix....
she is a curser...
KEEP MY COOL...
BYGONE B BYGONES...
hate her....
but still good coz it is somehow still ok today...
haix...
end of post..

3/4/2006(monday)

2006-04-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

OMG....
my life has been curse by someone today...
todae i go to school find out that i 4get to do some questions on math....
but lucky teacher give us extra time to do...
i go dinner later come back...

2/4/2006(sunday)

2006-04-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

hii..todae is sunday....
rained...so boring....
nth much to do...
today have campus superstar...
muz watch...wish zhiyang will win...
been doin reflections again...
thinks that now i noe how to control my emotions le...
no need to act happy while u are not...
so realli wish school will b more meaningful...
still thinking that my frenz dun realli care abt me...
mayb i think to much...
y muz i let them destroy my beautiful life...
i wish to ask...
like u dun have a hp is a big deal arhz...
i have but i didnt bring to school wat...
they thought i m lying...
hate it lor...
they think wat?...
they veri rich arhz...
if i lie i still have a no. 4 wat...
always take it out n check sms when noe tt there maynot b coz everyone around our age are in school...
mayb is her parent...
but her parent also muz noe tt she is in school studying... at least sms her after school...
so y she keep taking out...
n that is an old type of phone so take it out to show off at least muz have quality wat...
those hu read my daily post plz dun suspect that i m saeing u...
if u are not the one u WILL NOT EVEN FEEL ABIT THAT I M SAEING U...
so dun suspect...
ya...thanks 4 all of ur concern(again)...
i can handle all my school stuffs...realli
isthat i juz kan bu xun yan(chinese)
one of my choir fren sae that those with long eye leashes are veri proud...
bossy n look down on ppl...
ya 2 of my fren is like tt....
but still dun suspect...
if u are not wrong or gulity u wil not feel that i m saeing u...
thay sae abt the type of shoe the type pf bag...
o...muz b branded then can....
o i hate it...
thich to change the fren circle group but cant coz it is juz weird...
u have been with those ppl 3 months...
u cant adapt to new things so quickly...
so i SO wish i have a true-trust-worthy fren...
old mates...u are already so dun tell me to hang otu with ur group...
we are different class though n we arein different groups...
i dun like getting new stuffs too much...depends...
n i HATE SORRY TERRIBLELY...
if they didnt do wrongly.....they will not sae sorry..
so y did wrongly n then later sae sorri...
hate the sound of the word..
dunno y ...
mayb bcoz i heard it too many times tis year...which is onli 3 months onli...
JUZ HATE SORRY....
DOES HU READ TIS POST REAMAMBER I HATE SORRY....
hahaz....
recalling my motto....
keep cool n let bygones b bygones...
good...
byes....end of post...

1/4/2006(saturday)

2006-04-01T14:38:00.000+08:00

hii...todae is 1st of april...
HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY...
countinue to yesterday post....
that person that own up saein he is the one is REALLI being bought down to the office...
later he was back in class...quiet....
not long after desipline teacher of sec 1 come to our class...
ask hu scold that word to own up...
then the one hu sae he did it sae he is the one n another one sae he atually is the one not the other boy...
they were later put to stand outside the class...
to ask is there any other hu commited...
there is and the teacher ask...
by the count of three the person muz own up....
but tt culprit didnt own up...
so he was being pull by the collar...n also get punish...
n the three of them were punish...
1 of them shouldnt get punish lor...
the real one should get it...
so y not try...
no one own up....
then the whole class get punish then MAYB the real culprit will realli feel GULITY...
so he will admit....
this is wat i think...
ya get to sth else...
dun think of tt anymore...
ya i perfrom yesterday n it is 4 the teachers tis time...
there are other teachers from different school...
n i saw my primary school chinese teacher!!!!!!
MDM HO L.L....
hahaz..then i saw her while performing....
n i saw her smiling so i also smile with out reasons....
hahahahahahahahaz...
ithink she is telling her freinds abt me...
i look so ugly lor...
with the SO thick make up...
haix...n the hair also muz tie at the side...
kind of act cute...
N I M STANDING AT THE FIRST ROW.....
o shit shit lor...
but it soon over...
haix....
atually nth much to sae todae....
do the same routine lor....

31/3/2006(friday)

2006-03-31T19:55:00.000+08:00

hii...add sth to yesterday post...
sth terrible happen...
while we were having our english exams...
our teacher explains wat to do 4 the exams...
then a boy keep toking...
so the teacher ask the boy to go in front but he dont wan..
then dunno hu scold a bad word...FxxK...
then the teacher like so angry he scold until nearly the whole sch may hear...
so the teacher next door come n find out wat happen...
then ask hu realli did it...
if no one own up the whole class get punish...
itis nvm 4 me realli...
but the one commited dun own up...
so someone else b scrapegoat n own up saeing he is the one...
n the tacher sae we realli wan to scarifice our frien arhz?
no...i dont...
the person hu did it dont admit...
i noe is hu...but i promise not to sae hu...
i hat hime so much
i dun treat him as a classmate anymore...
i 2mr continue...
byes 4 todae....

30/3/2006(thrusday)

2006-03-30T20:24:00.000+08:00

sorry 4 the past few days....been busy with all my school things...
i will give a quick wrap up...
been practicing 4 my performance today n 2mr...
not veri happy....
cut my hair....
ya...get to todae stuffs....
performing in front of my SCHOOLMATES...
it is gross i tell u...
make mistakes...
n coz of tt stay back n do more practices...
not i alone...whole choir...
have cough...but not tt serious...
n to join the past few posts together which i keep mentioning...
...frenz...been the same...
no respond...think tt i am transparent....
cant even help me...
so b fren with them 4 wat?
care their own bussiness...
FRIENDS care 4 each other no matter how busy they are...
tis is wat i think a real friends count...
but there is none...still...
my old school friends cant b my best fren anymore...
not bcoz i hate them...
is tt they are my MEMORABLE BEST FRIENDS...
i cant believe my friends dont even help ppl to carry things...
like take pink will kills...
or help to take UNTIL the classroom also will cost their life...
4 awhile onli wat...
not 4ever...so y cant they help...
u dont mistaken it 4 PEER PREASURES........
well it is not...
it is like they are not the friends u WANT to b 4ever....
i can b trusted...realli...i can b a true give-in-all-i-can-help girl...
but they cant...
they already show their fox`s tail...
bad...n a boy...always picks on me....
i dont even do ANYTHING to disturb him...
mayb he juz dont like the sight of me...
never sae me will die...
LIKE I CARE...AS IF I LIKE HIS PRESENT TOO....
the sight of him make me wan to scold...FxxK...
keep cool....i think...my motto....keep cool everything will b all right...i think....
so i do keep MY cool...somehow...
juz dont care...not happy...dont smile...
like i not tok to much ppl(my old friends)noe tt i may b feeling sad...
but wat mayb my new friends...
u may thing tt they juz noe me 4 3 MONTHS....so they didnt noe me...
but u see...the boys...some...not even with me tt often as my girl frens...
noe tt IM SAD...
so wat is wrong...not me...they...
like i sae they care abt themselves ONLI...
dont EVEN BOTHER to noe more abt ur freinds...
they always will stop to check their SMSes so i wait...
but they wont...they juz go...dont even bother u if onli u ask them to...
I HATE IT.......
cant they juz like me...KEEP THE COOL....
dont wan still wait....at least we are friends....
but i think i m the onli wan sacrificing...
to this friendship circle...
they dont...it is on rare occasions...
onli do it when they saw their friends...
i mean they help...
if i could i would prefer to have BOYS as my friends...but tt will b werid...
juz saeing...but they are at least better...they ask..they somehow care....
haix...sae somemore i will b boiling hot...
another motto...let bygones b bygones...
so i have 2 mottos....remember always...
KEEP MY COOL N LET BYGONES B BYGONES.......
ok...i dont wan to sae anymore...or I WILL burst...
SO BYES...
end of post...

26/3/2006(sundae)

2006-03-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

hii...
thanx 4 all of ur concern...
i m feeling better....
i miss old school times so much...
haix...
time never turn back 4 changes u want to make...
so...(like i have say b4)let bygones be bygones....
so i will look ahead...
but...
i still wish we could begin tis year again....
begin without feeling sad...
being with me remember wat would happen ahead...
n prevernt it...
from happening itself...n reapeating itself again...
to not have those sad memorys...u dun ever wan it to happen...
how i wish...
but it is still the same...
i cant change it...
n i wonder are fairytales somehow true???
can we b in fariytales....
everyting impossible always happen in fairytales....
so i had to wish again...
i try different ways of wishing...
like wishing on a falling star...(but it is rare)
so i wish when TV shows have shooting star...
which is somehow ridiculous...
so i wish when ever my birthday is...
which everyone will get a chance to do every year...
but it is a lie...u are cheating urself....
i have been doing tis since i born...
it has been 13 years...
every year different but somehow some of it is the same....
but it still didnt come true...
not even once...
so i try another type...
write on a piece of paper n put it at the last page of ur dairy...
it works....
in my dreams...
i dream of it...
serveral nights....
the same dreams...
so at least it works...somehow...
i try another one...prey....
i go to temples...
my grandma brought us there b4...
it was a long time ago...
real long...
last time i go is like....5...i cant remember....(=
the last thing tt would help to everyone...hope...
everyone hope...
hope 4 all kinds of things...
like new handphone or an ipod...
so i think hope is the best....
but it didnt work AT ALL...
haix....
but there is always HOPE(like everyone say)if u prey or wish...
haix...so i did it no matter if it is real or if i really believe in it...
good luck folks...
hope ur hopes,dreams,wishes and preyers come true..
BEST WISHES...

25/3/06(saturday)

2006-03-25T16:08:00.000+08:00

o it was a good day todae...
everythimg was fine...
yesterdae is the bowen 25th sport day...
our class is so great...
they run so good...
a pity i not veri good at sports...
hahas..
we did not win...
but to me...
our class is the BEST...
haix...i cheer until sore troat...
dunno wat would happen to my singing performance....
o nvm...drink more herbal tea...
but i hate the taste of it...
need to sell at least 3 tickets of the performance at the DBS centre...
but still havent manage to sell one...
it is so expensive lor...so no one wan to buy...$10 for 2pm n $20 for 7pm...
haix...still muz sell b4 31/3...
can sell 3 i already veri happy...
i always wanted to ask...
y is there always a big gap between my frineds n me?
haix...it is always like tt...
use to it...
haix...wan to change my blogskins again...

20-3-06(mondae)

2006-03-20T18:16:00.000+08:00

hii..my new blog...hate the old one...especially the website name...
been sad lately...thinking wat i had done wrong...
but from my reflections...NONE......
so y ppl seem to hate me so much???
i did some reflections during the holidays...
thinks if i didnt tok to much mayb tt would help...
but it didnt work
i realli think i was somehow quiet todae...
but donno ..i think someone like sae me again...
haix...
it is realli difficult to change...
haha...but there is sth to b happy abt...
my L1R5 14...
so muz happy...
sfter all let bygones be bygones...(sorry if wrong spelling=))
now realli trying to keep a smile everyday or like glumpy not nice...
not i ai mei arhz...
juz dun let ppl think i m sad...
but tt doesnt mean i EVERYDAY will b sad...depends...
haix...
hope my dreams come true...
sth i will never tell anyone....nor admit when they sae it...
be happy everyone....